(Filip)
When I woke up first day in cottage during quarantine, I thought: “Was this whole trip to India just a dream ?”. I knew… I felt this is the beginning of something bigger. This is big life challenge, even for our relationship. I was really missing Lakshmi, her family and India in general but on the other side I was happy at home, because corona virus was still a big deal back in August 2020 in Slovakia. Mom was telling me: “You can come back home now or you will probably have big difficulties when there will be lockdown in Slovakia.”. Lakshmi was understanding, the situation in world is getting more complicated and it is not good to be apart from home now, when there are still hard covid lockdowns. I came back exactly before everything was going to shut down again. I literally came from ending lockdown in India and beginning lockdown in Slovakia.

Honestly I was not so much scared of covid. I was more scared of how long we will be separated with my love. My quarantine was pretty peaceful in the middle of forest. It was incredible to see and realise the first difference between India and Slovakia – the amount of people in Slovakia was like 10 times lesser. After I spent around half year in India I can see many differences at home. I was like able to see my home country with different eyes. You can read tens of books but it will never describe the real feeling of cultural differences when you experience both. First days we were not calling so much because I was not used on calling others through camera yet. So we were just writing each other and sending videos or photos. Later I got really comfortable calling her every single day. Even today when I am writing this post (1 year separation already) we are still calling every single day sharing everything with each other.

Quarantine took 8 days exactly. On 5th day I took PCR covid test and it was negative so I was able to go home finally from cottage. During quarantine I was cleaning inside and around the cottage, watching some educational videos, cooking some small meals, meditating outside in forest, listening music and working a bit because internet was not so fast there. Migi was really missing me after few days already so she used to wear my blanket to remember my smell (on photo). 😄 She was really making fun. When I came home so many people were writing me to meet. Everybody wanted to know how it was in India and how did I even got there. From this experience of telling story 100 times to family or friends. I realised, we can make some kind of blog or something so that everybody can read our story and trust me, this coming home part in not the end for sure. It will be even more interesting what kind of pain we needed to come through during our separation…

With Migi we discussed we will have to wait around 2 months (till October 2020) and I will call embassy again to know what is the situation. Because they told us last time there is no option yet how Migi can go to Europe or me to go to India, not even marriage option. Until then, we both started working. I started doing my business and save some money when I will want to go india or bring Migi to Slovakia. Migi slowly went to work in Bengaluru again after lockdown in Karnataka. That time I was starting to mine Bitcoin (on photo), doing online marketing, continue programming, developing my youtube channel and reading books. I really can say we were working hard with Migi that time.

In October I called embassy again, asking if there is something new or what should we do. They told us there is still no chance and embassies are closed. I told them that I will call them after a few months again. This covid crisis can’t last forever right ? When I told Migi she was so sad and we got few days of depression. You can imagine being separated and not have idea if there will be a chance to reunion again. It was really hard but we always somehow manage to connect again. We can’t simply live without our energies being separated. Bodies will wait but our souls and spiritual connection were unbelievable. So we managed to support each other with love and continue waiting. Later on November I bought strong laptop for Migi because I knew she’d love to learn programming or something else. She was having extreme slow laptop which was not good tool to develop herself. Her family didn’t had job because of covid and Migi was sending 80% of salary to family. I always admire Migi for her sacrifice to her family so much. That is one of the reasons I love her so much. She is my angel.

In the start of December Migi got really bad back pain. She fell down while she was washing her teeth in PG in the morning. I was scared like hell. She needed to stay in PG and didn’t went to work obviously. She didn’t even went to doctor. I was telling her all the time to see doctor but Migi is sometimes sloth. 🤪 But I can understand her I also don’t like going to doctors too much. But when it is really serious I just go and this was serious thing. Migi went home for one month because she got leave from a doctor to take rest and make her back warm. She got problem with lower back. She needed to stay warm and not lift big weights. Sometimes I was thinking like why in India there are no default heaters in building in winter. I understand the minimum temperature is 14 degrees but thats still really cold for sleeping. Migi sometimes used to sleep even in sweater. In Slovakia we are used on little bit more cozy and pleasant sleeping like just being in pijamas under blanket. Human should feel safe and have good temperature while sleeping. 🙃

I was supporting Migi as I could, I was encouraging her. I was really scared about her and it was even during the most peaceful Christmas time in Slovakia. I was always writing her how much she mean to me and that she will came here once. Migi sometimes in such hard times alone without my touch and love, she used to fall in small depressions and tells: “Just choose another girl, I am too defective one for you Filip. You can have beautiful and good one.” 😞 but I never gave up and will never give up on Lakshmi. I was everyday with her. Later in start on January Migi went again back to work in Bengaluru. I was telling her to always put that hot bag on her back and be careful of cold weather. Someone can say, that how it can be so cold in India. On equator in India temperatures can reach even under 20 degrees celsius. Because you have more seasons. In January we had little bit of sad session because we were not able to say, how much longer it will took to even to hug each other. But that was normal for our situation. We are human beings. We need physical touch with each other. Especially the loved ones. 🥺

First months of separation was bearable.
But then, the biggest worries came.